24th oct... it's already been a month since i posted anything.. it's been a month already? man.. is it me or did these weeks just flew past? Haven't really had anything post... what happened... what happened the past month.. let me recall.. lots of training.. running around.. ostacles blah blah yahda yahda yahda.. all the army bullshit that we all gotta go through.. god damn bullshit. Past few weekends were rather short due to live firing on one weekend and.. what was it.. some nagivation shit test the next weekend. Started going outfield and putting on those god damn camo again.. This past weekend was the first proper weekend we had since parents visiting day.. booked out on friday night and will be booking in tonight.

Went out with the guys on sat night.. haven't seen them in awhile and we went to our usual haunt at the city area.. Had the usual walk around and dinner and chilling. Certainly been a long time since we started this.. way back in '99 when we were in sec2.. after npcc training on saturday mornings.. six of us would go for lunch.. either at the old kfc or macs.. then spend the rest of the afternoon walking around clementi central.. going to big bookshop..

Don't know whassup.. been thinking a lot abt the past these few days.. Sunday went out for lunch with my cousin jiahui. Went to holland v as usual.. had this big bowl of 'la mian' at crystal jade before going for coffee at starbucks.. talked abt the times we were kids.. among other things.. and now we're already 21yrs old.. never thought.. never thought.. life have been so carefree.. to the point where.. sometimes i don't know where i'm headed in life. What am i gonna do? What's life after national service? I hope I find that answer soon.. otherwise i'm just a lost sheep in the big city... ....

Few days a go a friend asked me for advice.. saying she got to knew this guy and have been chatting with him blah blah.. and then she finds out from her friends that this guy is a player blah blah.. and ask me if she should cont. talking to him.. Seriously.. i really don't know.. why're you asking me?! i in the god damn army for all these months i lost track of so many things out here! Not that i don't wanna help.. but it's your life.. whatever people says.. decisions up to you.. Everytime someone will encounter something like this.. pretty common place i guess. What to do.. all ppl like me can do is be a listening ear and try to say something useful i guess.. Everyone's got problems.. as my platoon sergeant puts it.. 'life sucks.. suck thumb and deal with it.' and guess i can't agree more.

Sometimes i don't understand ppl.. how some ppl can seem to take relationships so lightly.. this boat's sinkin' so i'll just hop into the next one that comes along. I nv thought i can hear someone say "oh btw i changed bf". I mean.. what's this? Not that you're changing your fucking handphone... and out there some ppl nv even tasted love.. well sometimes you wonder if those are really love.. anyway.........

These past few months.. ever since I enlisted.. been trying to forget this person.. and i thought i have.. always thought i have.. even telling some of my friends who know abt it to stop mentioning the person.. well.. maybe i haven't gotten over some things completely.. not anymore.. Guess it's time to let go and stop wasting time. Time to delete all the memories and those damn text messages in my phone.. and maybe.. life will be better after... People are never who they seem.. anyway.. who doesn't live under a facade?

Thank god for this blog.... ranting's a good way to vent some frustrations....
Will check back in.. i hope.. cheers and out.


P.S. Here's some photos btw

Having dinner at pizza hut the night before


pasta to top up with the pizza.. real hungry!