Hello. I'm back from tekong. Just reached home this morning though the field camp ended last night. I feel so so tired, so drained, more mental than physical. I felt like I went through the worst week of my life. It didn't start of like this. It just got worst, and worst. I couldn't train the recruits properly, I couldn't work with my colleagues and I just had so many things running through my head I don't know what I should do first. I nearly broke my knee jumping off the 5-tonner truck once, just have to land a little harder I'd probably be in hospital now. It's really hard to face so many ppl and pretend nothing is happening and I have to continue doing my job because I'm a commander and I have to know my place. It's really difficult. We're humans too, we have problesm too. Can't remember how many times I got fucked the past week by the bosses. And on the last night of the field camp was the Battalion movie night cum BBQ at Sanyongkong Campsite at the Tekong reclaimed land. They played '300' and everyone seemed to had lots of fun. Well almost everyone.

I don't know what's going to happen next. I feel so god damn dead and miserable!