Hi y'all. On sunday I went for my 4th full marathon, this year's standard chartered singapore marathon. I finished in 6hrs 23mins, very slow by normal standard definitely, but it was much faster than my previous timing! So I believe I can do better for the next one (if my knee holds)!

This year's run was kinda different for me, as I ran the whole race from start to finish all alone. It was boring, and tough pushing myself when at the last 10km my legs just refused to listen to me and get going. I also can't help thinking of LY throughout the whole race. When I ran my first marathon in 2007, and last yr when we ran together, she had been there at the finishing line with me. Even though we signed up together long ago in June, it's sad we couldn't run tgt this time.

Sometimes I think I am still coping ok with not having her by my side, but I know deep down inside it'll take a longer time to really be ok. My room was filled with memories of her, everytime I go some place where we've been tgt or do things we've done tgt it just reminds me of her and I start to get emo. Seeing her on my facebook live feeds, she says she's very depressed. I hope it's not because of me. Why should it be anyway? I don't know why I'm thinking so much, she didn't even give us a chance to talk things out and at least have a clean break. Sigh.. I hope I get over this soon.

On a lighter note, I'll be going to Bangkok next thurs for four days with my bros! It'll be our first overseas trip together after knowing one another for 10yrs now! We just planned the itinerary on wednesday night, and except for packing and changing money, everything's good to go. Lots of food, shopping and massages! Sex capital of the world, here we come!