I just came home. Did my COS duty yesterday. Why am I always doing duty when everyone else books out? I think mr.tong wilson aka Admin Spec doesn't like me. Yesterday he told me he plans to throw me 2 weekend duties for sept. I wanna kill someone. Took the usual route home, except that I just walked really slowly. I prob never walked so slowly before, with my player plugged in, in my own world, sunk in my own thoughts. No one was awake when I reached home so i quietly came up here in my room sweet room.
What is wrong with me lately, why does my heart feel so heavy these few days. But I know I can get better, for me sake, for her sake. I love her so much I don't want her to get hurt, yet sometimes I feel like I am. Sometimes some things slip my mind and I always wish I can turn back time and rectify my mistakes. I just applied for 2 days off next week to rest myself. Have some time to spend with my dear gf too...
I miss my guardian bumblebee...