I'm so so tired! I seriously cannot remember the last time I had a proper weekend. I just booked out today. It's the 3rd or 4th weekend beign burnt thanks to so many events and duties. I can't remember the last time I had a proper sleep either. This is so god damn fuckin' ridiculous! We're humans too give us a god damn break! This really sucks man. Yup I did COS duty yesterday. This is the 3rd COS duty I did this week, on top of having to look after the platoon, among other things and getting fucked around by that crazy ass PS of mine.

After I handed over my duty I headed home and don't know why I went down to clementi central instead of taking bus from jurong east as I always do. I haven't been to clementi central for a long time even thought I spent always my whole teenhood over there with my buddies. Things changed I walked around there for a while, tracing the paths I always walked. So many new shops appeared, well some shops are still there. Had breakfast at clementi mac. Used to always go there after school with friends or on sat mornings before I enlisted with my cousin for breakfast. Clementi mac still looks the same since I was in primary school! The paintings, and the murals on the wall, and the tables and chairs. Went to NTUC to get some cup noodles for camp before heading to get my hair cut before going to tekong. Yup I'll be away in Tekong from tomorrow till next saturday but I'll still be contactable as long as the hp batt lasts! Yup headed home after that......

Had a terrible night last night. You know usually you don't remember what you dream of, but I remembered really clearly what I dreamt of last night, and it felt so real, and scary. I was lying down in the interview room of my company office becos the lights outside cannot be switched off and I thought I fell asleep, but I suddenly have this extremely uneasy and overwhelming feeling and my whole body felt paralysed and I couldn't move at all and I kept chanting cos that's what my mum taught me to do if something happens. I couldn't move and this great sense of dread and fear kept me there for god knows how long before I jumped up and ran out to find the whole place was dark and I couldn't see anything and it seemed like I was running in circles and circles before I felt that feeling of dread lifted and I found myself back in the interview room again. Don't know what the hell happened but I didn't wanna get out of bed so I just closed my eyes and waited for day. Maybe I'm too tired or I have too many things on my mind. I don't know. Felt so helpless. Then came this weird dream, of my sec sch friend and she came to visit and suddenly there were weird animals running past and there's birds and deers and suddenly everything vanished and this boy whom I've nv seen before appeared, and he says he has cancer and man it's damn weird. I feel weird thinking and blogging abt this. I think I'll stop here for today.